Lately I've been asking myself the same question. What do I really want? I don't mean to be a hedonist and life is definitely not about me, but I know that I have been designed by a creator. I believe I have some desires that are hard wired inside of me. In fact these desires are hard wired into every human being. I believe we have all been wired with an intense desire for God. How does that quote go? Something about all of a person's running is really him trying to find God. So if the thing I really want is God how does this affect my day to day life. How does this really break down? How does this relate to church life?
Most people who have taken any basic psychology course or have dabbled in this science at all have probably soon come across Maslow's Hierarchy. The theory goes something like this: Every person is born with certain needs. For a person to experience self-actualization he must have these needs met. These needs are listed in a pyramid diagram with the most basic needs pictured at the bottom. According to the theory, the closer a person can get to the top of the pyramid the happier he will be.
The only problem I have with this theory is that the whole explanation leaves out God. According to this theory if a person can control his environment enough he will be able to reach what every person REALLY WANTS: self-actualization (or in simple English--happiness).
APPLICATION: Although I rarely mention it to anyone, in fact I rarely realize it, but in all practicality I believe that if I can control my environment enough I will be happy. I am finding that I base a lot of my belief system on Maslow's Hierarchy. Almost subconsciously I make so many decisions based on making sure my needs are met. Why do I do this? So I can be happy. So I can experience self-actualization. I make sure I have friends around me and enough money to do what I really want. But where does this thinking ultimately end? This theory leads to a self-sufficiency apart from God. According to Jesus teaching he who tries to find his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for Christ's sake will find it (God's version of self-actualization).
It's only as we throw away the blocks of Maslow's pyramid that we can really live. So what does that mean? It might mean we give away so much money we may end up hungry. It may mean that we spend time with the uncool person even if it means we will become disconnected with our really good friends (Ah I'm totally convicted already). It may mean I blend in as a team player and never get noticed for my contribution rather than making sure I am a distinct individual. However, the great part about all of this is that when I come up short with the needs I can supply for myself I allow God to make up the difference. As long as we meet all our needs on our own, we block the blessings that God wants to give us. "Blessed are they that mourn for they shall be comforted." They that mourn are blessed because they get to experience God. As long as we control our own environment we never allow ourselves to experience God. Is this why God feels so far away sometimes? Is this why we wish we could have God come through in a big way but our request is never granted? Maybe if we would put ourselves on the line enough to experience grief we would get a chance to experience God comforting us. Maybe if we would put ourselves on the line enough to actually be out of food for a meal we would get a chance to see God "Give us our DAILY bread."
What do you really want? What do I really want? I think without a doubt the answer to this question is that we all want a God who is real, a God we can feel moving in our day to day lives on an hour by hour basis, a God who shows his love to us each day by meeting our needs because we have made ourselves needy by giving everything back to Him. God loves needy people. Why else would the first section of Matthew 5 hand out a list of blessings for very needy people. Throughout scripture the theme runs true that God is a God of the needy. He draws near to the humble.....
We talk a lot about being a good steward of what God has given us, but I wonder sometimes if our being a good steward is more about making sure all of our "ducks are in a row" so we will never be caught unprepared. Whenever I become such a good steward of my possessions that everything works out I find myself predictably turning a cold shoulder to God. The more I put myself on the line for God the more I find my passion for God grow. In the Old Testament it is clearly shown that prosperity and turning away from God go hand in hand. Maybe this is why in the New Testament Jesus asks us to try a different way.
You see, we were not created to have boring lives. So many people think Christianity is a boring religion. It's not a boring religion unless we've re-created it this way. God is not a boring God. We only get bored when we cut him out of our lives by reaching self-actualization through Maslow's Hierarchy rather than by following the way of the cross. Are you bored with life? Give all your money away. Do you want an adventure? Pack your bags and head to the city and start a conversation with a homeless person. Do you want to live? Then put yourself on the line this next week in a God honoring way that requires God to come through for you to make it through the week and you will have the most exciting week of your life. So what do you really want? Based on scripture your most basic need is for God. The best way to really experience God is to become needy (James 4:6-10). The best way to become needy is to cut off the security lines currently holding you up. "The best thing to do with the best things in life is to give them away." --Shane Claiborne
Oh how our churches would be transformed if we only needed God. Not just a head knowledge--"I need God." But a real need--"I can't make it through this week without God." If we would make ourselves needy enough to allow God to start working in our churches we would get so pumped about God we couldn't hold it inside. Okay, so where's the line to sign up for being pumped about God? Maybe it is right over there beside the person who needs a friend right now.
--This post is dedicated to all my friends who have inspired me so much in pursuing the adventure of life. My our dreams never be disappointed. By God's grace these ideals will be the legacy of my life.